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Apr. 11th, 2007 | 11:20 pm
location: Guatemala City, Guatemala
mood: uncomfortable uncomfortable
music: my mom typing

oh livejournal....

where to begin...

Im in guatemala now... which is pretty cool...
my mom flew in sunday... so yeah, thats cool too...

2 weeks left here... well out of the country for that matter...

I managed to bring with me 4 sicknesses from Honduras...
Ameobas, Intestine infection, urine infection and a mushroom that invaded my skin and tummy...

oh honduras...

And, before i left the country like 3 months ago...
I had a test done at the OBGYN... but no one had told me the results...

for good reason, my mom waited til sunday to tell me...


I have pre-cancer in my cervix.
......life seems to love me right now.

When i go home, i will have to be operated on...
so they can try and remove all the pre cancer cells i have...

I may be over exaggerating this...
but i am so fucking scared.

if you could please like.. keep me in ur prayers... idk.
im bounced

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took this from krista :)

Mar. 24th, 2007 | 09:58 pm
mood: crappy crappy
music: If i were you [[ Hoobastank ]]

15 years ago:

1. I was 4.. hahaha
2. an only child, kind of.. til my sister was born.. *sighs* hahah
3. I lived in north attleboro i think
4. I still drank out of a bottle.. yahhh hahah
5. idk.. i dont remember


10 years ago:

1. I was 9 yrs old
2. In the 4th grade
3. the last clasroom on the 1st floor *snickers*
4. had a crush on Martin <3 my 1st one!!
5. was living in North attleboro

5 years ago:

1. I was 14
2. I was in my freshman year of high school at Feehan.
3. I dated scott
4. I became best friends with kayleigh
5. 1st marching band season/ last w- mancini


3 years ago:

1. I was 16
2. I was a junior at Feehan.
3. I was still dating scott haha
4. the whole jeff drama started
5. I got really really sick and was in and out of the hospital


1 year ago:

1. I was at the reeeg
2. I had my radio show with jessikuh
3. I met aphro nayshun who is the shit
4. I lived on campus and commuted
5. I had a mental breakdown

Yesterday:

1. Worked on Internado girl biographies
2. Had lunch with grandpa
3. started packing for Guatemala
4. watched titanic in spanish
5. walked aound Guaimaca

Today:

1. Took pictures of the Internado
2. Helped the guy fix the internet
3. Went to go see Sarah Potenza
4. packed more stuff for Guatemala
5. Got invited to a birthday party

Tomorrow:

1. Go to birthday party
2. Finish Internado Bios
3. Pack more...
4. walk around Guaimaca
5. convince John to take me on his motorcycle around Guaimaca

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(no subject)

Mar. 19th, 2007 | 02:42 pm
mood: crappy crappy
music: whatever outside

as much as i complain about my sickness here.. Honduras always finds a way to suprise me :)
..like today.. it's father's day here in Honduras....... and there was a marching band in the center of town!! and since we're so close to the center.. i was really excited :D

Ohhhh Marching Band... I miss you!

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dkfjdklf

Mar. 18th, 2007 | 10:40 pm
mood: nauseated nauseated

If i could just crawl into a hole and die right now i would :x
I have been with fever and naseau and the shits for the past week.. not gonna lie to u.. ahahah

and instead of getting better... im getting worse
and when i had tests done they said i was ok...

OK SO WHY AM I STILL DYING!?!?
8 days left in Honduras tomorrow....

That will have been 2 months and 1 week that i was here...
then its off to GUatemala for a month...
then..HOME... home home home home home... HOME....


I really really really just want to feel better....
it's been 2 months.. please..:(

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Mar. 3rd, 2007 | 11:38 am

STUPID HONDURAN INTERENT!!!!! i havent had online for about a week... im in an internet cafe in teh capital.. how sad is that__ hahahahha..... idk.. and idk how to work the stupid keyboard... so w-e.. all the signals are backwards,,, im alive,, peace outttt

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*sighs*

Feb. 18th, 2007 | 10:26 am
mood: sick sick
music: solo por un beso [[ aventura ]]

i feel like ass today.. :x
scratch that... i feel like ass everyday... but today s a particulary hideous breed of ass.
why must sickness consume me? and why cant my mom be here holding me?? i know i sound like the biggest LOSER... but when ur in a 3rd world country alone... simple things like ur mom nursing you back to health is missed immensly...

granted ive been sick since ive gotten here...
and it is official kids...


NESSA HAS BEEN IN HONDURAS FOR A MONTH (and now a few days)
...you would think i would be okay by now.

oh... and it only took the people here a month to be like "hmmm well maybe she is really sick..."
SOOOOO, now i'm getting tested on monday... *sighs*

41 days till im out of Honduras and into Guatemala....
48 till i get to see my mommmmmmy!!!!

and 67 till im home.

I was/am out of country for 100 days exactly.
... I can not wait to go home.

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stole it from eri

Feb. 11th, 2007 | 01:34 pm
mood: blank blank
music: rakata [[ wisin and yandel ]]

<td align="center"> Nessa --
[noun]:

A hard-core grave robber

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com</td>



soooo... i miss my boyfriend horribly...

and ive been here for about a month. almost.. like a few more days.

thats so crazy... and im still not completely used to being here.

well.. i have the rest of feb and all of march to get this right..
get myself together and put my life in order.

then im off to party in GUATEMALA for 3 weeks ;)
my mom is coming down for 2 of the 3 weeks that im in guatemala...


AND THEN IM COMING HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!
April 26th bitches....

My boyfriend still thinks its in May..
so im suprising him by coming home early....

like my mom is going back the 24th of april...
and im going the 26th with my grandma. (from what im getting from my mom and sister)

and i told him that im sending him a belated birthday present with my mom.
and that weekend, he needs to go get it.. (either 28 or 29) and i said that it had to be that weekend.. cause if not then it wouldnt work.. so i have him wondering what it is :)

I want to tell him so bad that its me.. hahahah
but i have to keep my mouth shut for this to work.

is that a good idea?

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DIE

Feb. 5th, 2007 | 10:22 pm
mood: annoyed annoyed
music: hotline [[ ciara ]]

i will not deny that i was the one to talk to you...
but that was for an apology... which you gave me nicely.. thank you.

don't think just cause of that we are going to be best friends...
because we aren't.. maybe aquaintances.. but how can you act like we can be friends after everything that has happened? we both knew obviously it would be better to be apart....

and I've found someone now who loves me for me..despite everything.. all the shit that you put me thro.. and all the influence you had when i fucked myself over... you should respect that and me. obviously time doesn't change you.. no matter how long you've been away right?

well time is changing me... and i don't depend on you like some crazy idiot.
I'm happily in love with Julio... and i'm sorry but this you can't touch.


freakin ex boyfriends.. kiss my ass.

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sdsd

Feb. 4th, 2007 | 10:15 pm
mood: contemplative contemplative
music: my grandpas IMs

i love my boyfriend so sos sososososososos much...

even if i only talk to him 10 mins a day...

Honduras is treatin me better...
or im adapting... finally... it only took me 3 weeks :x

this week coming up... is the big 1 month since ive been far away from everything i know..

i got the rest of february and all of march left here... so like.yah...

april.. im moving to Guatemala...

then.. hopefully.. HOME.

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115... guess im a geek

Feb. 2nd, 2007 | 10:01 pm
mood: crappy crappy
music: spanish music

Supposedly if you've seen over 70, you have no life. Number the ones you've seen. Put your score in header and repost. (its out of 200)

() Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
() Boondock Saints
(x) The Mexican
() Fight Club
(x) Starsky and Hutch
() Neverending Story
() Blazing Saddles
() Airplane
Section 1: 3/10


() The Princess Bride
() Young Frankenstien
(x) AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgundy
(x) Napoleon Dynamite
() Saw
(x) White Noise
() White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
() Jason X
Section 2: 5/10


(x) Scream
(x) Scream 2
(x) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
() Scary Movie 3
(x) American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
(x) American Wedding
(x) Harry Potter
Section 3: 9/10


(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
() Harry Potter 4
() Resident Evil I
() Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
(x) Little Black Book
(x) The Village
() Donnie Darko
(x) Lilo & Stitch
Section 4: 6/10


(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
(x) 13 Ghosts
() Signs
(x) The Grinch Who Stole Christmas
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(x) White Chicks
(x) Butterfly Effect
(x) Thirteen Going on 30
(x) I, Robot
Section 5: 9/10


(x) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
() Universal Soldier
(x) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
() Along Came Polly
() Deep Impact
() KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
(x) Eight Crazy Nights
Section 6: 6/10


(x) A Cinderella Story
() The Terminal
(x) the Lizzie McGuire Movie
(x) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
(x) Dumb & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination 2
(x) Halloween
(x) The Ring
Section 7: 9/10

() The Ring 2
(x) Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
() Practical magic
(x) Chicago
(x) Ghost Ship
() From Hell
(x) Hellboy
(x)Secret Window
(x) I Am Sam
()The Whole Nine Yards
Section 8: 6/10


(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play
(x) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
(x) Just Married
(x) Gothika
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street
(x) Sixteen Candles
()Coach Carter
() Bad Boys
Section 9: 8/10

() Bad Boys 2
(x) Joy Ride
() Se7en
()Oceans eleven
(x) Ocean's Twelve
() Identity
() Lone Star
() Bedazzled
(x) Predator I
() Predator II
Section 10: 3/10


(x) Independence Day
() Cujo
() A Bronx Tale
(x) Darkness Falls
() Christine
(x) ET
() Children of the Corn
(x) My Boss' daughter.
(x) Maid in Manhattan
() Frailty
Section 11: 5/10


() Best Bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
() Calendar Girls
()Sideways
() Mars Attacks
() Event Horizon
(x) Ever After
(x) Forrest Gump
() Big Trouble in Little China
Section 12: 4/10


() X-Men
()X-2
(x) Jeepers Creepers
() Jeepers Creepers 2
()Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Others
(x) Freaky Friday
() Reign of Fire
(x)Cruel Intentions
(x)The Hot Chick
Section 13: 5/10


(x) Swimfan
() Miracle
(x) Old School
(x) The Notebook
() K-Pax
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(x) Walk to Remember
(x)Boogeyman
Section 14: 8/10


() Hitch
(x) The Fifth Element
() Star Wars Episode I The Phantom Menace
() Star Wars Episode II Attack of The Clones
() Star Wars Episode III Revenge of The Sith
() Star Wars Episode IV A New Hope
() Star Wars Episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars Episode VI Return of The Jedi
(x) Troop Beverly Hills
() Swimming with Sharks
Section 15: 3/10


(x) Air Force One
() For Richer or Poorer
() Trainspotting
() People Under the Stairs
() Blue Velvet
(x) Sound of Music
(x) parent trap 1
(x) Parent Trap 2
() The Burbs
(x) The Terminator
Section 16: 5/10


() Empire Records
() SLC Punk
(x) Meet Joe Black
(x) Nightmare Before Christmas
(x) The Silence of the Lambs
(x) Sleepy Hollow
() I Heart Huckabees
() 24 Hour Party People
() Blood In Blood Out
(x) The Virgin Suicides
Section 17: 5/10


()Space Balls
()Big Fish
(x)Titanic
(x)Mulan
()Mulan 2
()Cold Mountain
(x)Moulin Rouge
()Kung Pow, Enter The Fist
() As Good As It Gets
()Hannibal
Section 18: 3/10


(x)The Exorcist
(x)The Exorcist: The Beginning
(x)The Exorcism Of Emily Rose
()Dead Poet's Society
()Patch Adams
(x)Fern Gully
(x)Cool Runnings
(x)Austin Powers 1
(x)Austin Powers 2
(x)Austin Powers 3
Section 19: 8/10


()Stewie Griffin: The Untold Story
(x)Shrek 1
(x)Shrek 2
()2001: A Space Odyessy
()The English Patient
(x)Phonebooth
()This Is Spinal Tap
(x)Edward Scissor Hands
(x)The Sixth Sense
(x)Flight Plan
Section 20: 5/10

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